A Blog Without a Name...

Sapphire

2011-11-29T17:26:00.006+09:00

Walk through the light to find the shadow
Until your gods stall you from the edge
Sunk in the thought, the feel, the distance
Was it your secret?
Stop holding your fear, let memory live and die alone
No need to be there, let your desire scream

Until you feel alive
Because you are beautiful
Your scars are beautiful
Like the Sapphire
You'll still shine, when you sink into the sea
When the bleeding scars and jealousy carves the way you believe

Brink of the light, the wings of the night
Look into the eyes of fallen angels
Sink like a stone into the dark
Where no light can touch
Will god break my fall?
I feel the mystery, tries to take me along
To the end of the world, where I still believe
The colour is from your eyes

Because you are beautiful
Your blood was beautiful
Yesterday
I still hide at the seam of memories
I still hold my rosary, beneath the pain of life

Where the tears, when the bloody face of love, they take away the stain
Know that the stars of the sky
Glow in the ocean
The art of life
Makes me want to die in the colour of heaven

Another day has gone
Another friend has gone in to the flame
It's burning now

自分で切り裂いた胸の傷跡さえ美麗になるまで

Because you are beautiful
Your scars are beautiful
Like the sapphire
You'll still shine, when you sink into the sea
When the bleeding scars and jealousy carves the way you believe

Now and forever, you'll be loved
Let your destiny lead your heart
Sapphire

2011-11-13T19:14:00.001+09:00

素朴な幸せこそが、最高の幸せだ

Change in life

2011-10-24T08:13:00.001+09:00

What am I doing now...?

I miss those days...

A Post Without a Name...

2011-05-05T23:59:00.003+09:00

5 Years

The day I thought I'd never get through

has came

and

I got over it.

I got over you.

Wishing you the best of luck,

hope you will always be happy.

さようなら、大好きな人
いつまでもお幸せに :)

Until the Day We Meet Again （またあえる日まで）

2010-12-11T23:50:00.000+09:00

Blue sky, white clouds; let's look up and move forward
Those fun memories, that we laugh as we remember
The smiles of all the people we love are our treasures
I won't forget all those strong bonds among us...

Until the day we meet again,
Stay unchanged and don't forget your dreams
Until the day we meet again,
Let's make our dreams come true
Believing is what connects our hearts

Believe in yourself,
And you'll get something by stepping forward
Enlarge your dreams a bit, you're not all alone
A "once in a lifetime" treasure
It's kind of sad, but wipe your tears and let's set out...

Until the day we meet again,
Stay unchanged with the pure heart
Like how you used to wish to the shooting stars
Until the day we meet again,
I swear to the shining stars
That I will never forget about when we first met each other

Until the day we meet again...

Time Flew

2010-12-10T17:16:00.002+09:00

Today is the last day.

I still can't believe that this is happening.

Still.

It doesn't feel like it is happening.

2010-12-07T17:52:00.001+09:00

Extended Essay in progress....

2010-12-06T13:22:00.001+09:00

Looking into the old stuffs...

2010-12-05T04:24:00.002+09:00

LAST ONE WEEK

But I have to work on my finals =.=

This is not FAIR!

No

2010-11-30T04:26:00.001+09:00

I would rather choose to die than doubt.

2010-11-29T17:44:00.001+09:00

What's wrong....?

2010-11-28T18:11:00.000+09:00

2 more weeks.

Time is money.
Really

1300

2010-11-23T20:33:00.002+09:00

Today (November 23rd 2010) is the 1300th day.

I am glad that I have been with you for the past 1300 days.
Every moment that I spent with you is the moment that I treasure the most.
Thank you

Things could turn out to be in such an unexpected way.
It is really true that no one can predict what will happen in the future.
Who would've thought that this would happen.

18 more days.

2010-11-17T17:08:00.001+09:00

Right, I'll be more and more busy from now on....

New

2010-11-08T15:58:00.002+09:00

I have changed my thinking and attitude.
I hope I'm making a good change.

40 more days.
I hope you can enjoy your life here as much as possible,
And get ready for your new life.
I will do my best to help, support and stand by you.

What I learned from you

2010-10-28T15:58:00.003+09:00

I have learned and understood
I have re-realized
My initial concept of it
Time have changed me

And from that,

I have decided

and I will make a change

Help

2010-10-26T15:52:00.000+09:00

Someone please tell me what to do

Time Management

2010-10-19T17:17:00.002+09:00

Now that my time is getting lesser and lesser, I really need to manage my time wisely.
I need time to do my assignments
I need time to study
I need time to revise
I need time to relax
I need time to play sports
I need time to hang out with friends
And most importantly,
I need time to be with you
I hope I can enjoy the fullest, and so can you :)

....

2010-10-15T15:22:00.001+09:00

sigh.... so tired...

Yes

2010-10-14T11:14:00.004+09:00

Yes.

What you said was absolutely right.

I think I was being stupid.

I've been doubting you a lot nowadays.

Gomen.

I should believe in you more :)

Sign

2010-10-06T18:09:00.002+09:00

This dragon on my chest is the sign and proof of my faith and loyalty

Day

2010-10-04T17:13:00.002+09:00

It's so scary how my day passes so quickly.
The past 3 months holiday in Penang/Japan felt way slower than now. Everyday was different in terms of what I do and who I meet. Now in here, I just do the same things over and over again. I'm just repeating a routine over and over. And that is probably why I feel like the time is flying. Repeating the same things. I need to make my life a bit more interesting :/

2010-10-03T18:47:00.000+09:00

first time i got so happy by getting hugged.
i think that was my first proper hug

桜

2010-10-02T20:12:00.001+09:00

僕がそばにいるよ
君を笑わせるから
桜舞う季節かぞえ
君と歩いていこう

僕がそばにいるよ
君を笑わせるから
桜舞う季節かぞえ
君と歩いていこう

まぶしい朝は何故か切なくて
理由をさがすように君を見つめていた
涙の夜は月の光に震えていたよ
二人で

僕がそばにいるよ
君を笑わせるから
空のない街抜け出し
虹を探しに行こう

いつもそばにいるよ
君を笑わせるから
やわらかな風に吹かれ
君と歩いていこう
君と歩いていこう

君がいる
君がいる
いつもそばにいるよ

100%

2010-10-01T15:26:00.001+09:00

100% sounds like a good number.

But not all the time.

The time left is getting lesser and lesser.

2010-09-30T17:28:00.001+09:00

I don't know how to face it....

涙そうそう

2010-09-30T17:07:00.000+09:00

古いアルバムめくり　ありがとうってつぶやいた
いつもいつも胸の中　励ましてくれる人よ
晴れ渡る日も　雨の日も　浮かぶあの笑顔
想い出遠くあせても
おもかげ探して　よみがえる日は　涙そうそう

一番星に祈る　それが私のくせになり
夕暮れに見上げる空　心いっぱいあなた探す
悲しみにも　喜びにも　おもうあの笑顔
あなたの場所から私が
見えたら　きっといつか　会えると信じ　生きてゆく

晴れ渡る日も　雨の日も　浮かぶあの笑顔
想い出遠くあせても
さみしくて　恋しくて　君への想い　涙そうそう
会いたくて　会いたくて　君への想い　涙そうそう

HB

2010-09-26T23:50:00.000+09:00

Happy birthday:)

Hope you had a good day, and wish you luck in everything.

1234

2010-09-18T19:37:00.000+09:00

Today (September 18th 2010) is the 1234th day.
We are both now in a complete different environment.
Both of us started our own university lives.
I thank god for letting me be with her.
I don't know how I would've been in the first few days if I was alone.
Thank you so much, for everything.

alc

2010-09-18T02:52:00.000+09:00

I don't think I'm a big alcohol fan. I'm kind of reluctant to drink nowadays.

FAST

2010-09-13T06:39:00.001+09:00

This 3 and a half months was VERY fast....
I feel like I kind of wasted my time.
Home sweet home.
I really miss Penang now....

友情

2010-09-10T15:16:00.002+09:00

I wished if I could speak in Mandarin or Cantonese fluently.
But not anymore.
Instead, I found a new, little piece of "友情" today.
I was touched.

isolation

2010-09-10T09:27:00.001+09:00

I found out that I can't live by myself.
I need an accompaniment.
It's not about I'm strong or weak.
But I guess I'm just that way.
I am afraid of being alone.

そして…

2010-09-05T15:17:00.003+09:00

６時、母が部屋に入ってきて「学校だよ」と俺を起こす

休みの日にはほとんど食べない朝食を済まし、シャワーを浴びる

７時半、自分の愛車で通学

学校ではいつものように一緒にいるのが当たり前の友達がいる

３時半、自分の愛車で下校

家に着いたら真っ先に自分の部屋に篭り、パソコンとギターに没頭する

７時、ウチは両親共働きなので、妹とメイドとの三人での夕食

夕食が終わるや否やまた部屋に直行。宿題を済ませ、暇をつぶす

１２時、母が仕事から帰ってくるがそれでも部屋にいる

宿題が終わり次第、暇がつぶせなくなり次第、就寝

このような毎日当然のように繰り返してきた普段の生活

時が経ち、俺が一人で発ち、この風景が我が家から消えた

今までは両親共に俺の為に働いてくれ、何不自由ない生活をさせてくれた

これからは俺が頑張って、その恩返しをしなければ

今までの生活が無くなったからと言って絶望してはいけない

それらはこれからの人生への布石であり、資金である

悲しくないとは言い切れないが、前に進まなければ

今自分はカナダにいる。一人で

しかし、一人ではあっても独りではない

いつもすぐそばにいてくれる人がいる

自分のこともままならないくせに俺の心配をしてくれる人がいる

遠い海の向こうからも心配してくれる人達がたくさんいる

それだけで俺は頑張れるし、自分が幸せ者だと思える

2010-09-04T12:37:00.002+09:00

What I see...
Tears at the airport
Laughter on the campus
People make farewell and new meetings
And the start of the new life
Taking everything from before
Taking everything new in
In a complete different environment
Within the first year,
I am going to find the answer to the past 3 years of my life
Was I right, or wrong?
And so, it's the beginning of my new life

hmmm

2010-07-31T02:21:00.002+09:00

i think ive been using lots of "hmmm"s as my title. this is when i dont really know what to put as my title.

theres been a weird moment between this guy and i thesedays. well, its always been sorta silent between us and both of us have not been talking to each other but it was never weird like that. but nowadays its just weird. i feel avoided? abandoned? or ditched, maybe or even betrayed if to make it a bit too exaggerated. i really dont get it. did i do anything wrong? its like i tried to talk but i get no response. im not very certain about it though. i really hope its just a misunderstanding and i hope im just thinking too much.

This is me

2010-07-22T23:42:00.003+09:00

I am nothing special
I am just an ordinary guy with common thoughts, and I've lived a common life
There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten
I have nothing special in myself, and thus, I can't do anything special for you
I can't think of jokes that make you laugh
I can't think of interesting topics to catch your attention
I can't be patient at all time
I can't write a song or a poem
I can't dance or sing
I can't respond well to your expectations
But I've loved you with all my heart from deep inside it and with my entire soul
All I can do to you is to care with my fullest sincerity, and love with my biggest faith

(partially quoted from "The Notebook")

2010-06-02T23:30:00.001+09:00

What am I?

>+++|)

2010-05-18T23:31:00.000+09:00

It is still somewhat my admiration.

yes!

2010-05-16T00:00:00.002+09:00

yay, she made it

End of.....

2010-05-13T21:24:00.002+09:00

it's soon
End of IB
End of teenage
End of high school
End of life in Malaysia
End of living with my family
End of life relying on my parents

Am I proud of my life so far?

3rd Anniveresary

2010-05-05T21:03:00.002+09:00

Now...
Its been 3 years
Since 5th of May 2007
It feels like it was just yesterday
In the path of this 3 years
I have never and will never
Regret having this time and feeling
And you...

春よ、来い

2010-04-26T23:12:00.002+09:00

淡き光立つ俄雨
愛し面影の沈丁花
溢るる涙の蕾から
ひとつ、ひとつ、香り始める

それは空を越えて
やがて迎えに来る

春よ、遠き春よ。瞼閉じればそこに
愛をくれし君の懐かしき声がする

君に預けし我が心は
今でも返事を待っています
どれほど月日が流れても
ずっと、ずっと、待っています

それは明日を越えて
いつかきっと届く

春よ、まだ見ぬ春。迷い立ち止まるとき
夢をくれし君の眼差しが肩を抱く

夢よ、浅き夢よ。私はここにいます
君を想いながら一人歩いています
流るる雨のごとく、流るる花のごとく

春よ、遠き春よ。瞼閉じればそこに
愛をくれし君の懐かしき声がする

春よ、まだ見ぬ春。迷い立ち止まるとき
夢をくれし君の眼差しが肩を抱く

春よ、まだ見ぬ春…

dude -__-;

2010-04-19T19:36:00.000+09:00

waste my time.....
give me back my 2 and a half hours -___-;

Dragonforce does NOT suck live!!!

2010-04-17T14:21:00.005+09:00

"Reasons to Live" Live

DragonForce - Reasons to Live (Live Graspop 2009)

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"Heroes of Our Time", "The Last Journey Home" Live

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"The Last Journey Home" Live

DragonForce - The Last Journey Home (Live Graspop 2009)

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Wow

2010-04-17T14:20:00.000+09:00

How wonderful would it be if that happens.

キセキ～奇跡～

2010-02-24T00:44:00.002+09:00

明日、今日よりも好きになれる
溢れる想いが止まらない
今もこんなに好きでいるのに言葉に出来ない

僕らの出逢いがもし偶然ならば?運命ならば?
君に巡り合えた、それは『奇跡』

二人寄り添って歩いて
永久の愛を形にして
いつまでも君の横で笑っていたくて
「ありがとう」や「愛してる」じゃまだ足りないけど
せめて言わせて「幸せです」と

日々の中での小さな幸せ
僕らの出会いは大きな世界での小さな出来事
巡り合えたそれって「奇跡」

うまく行かない日だって
二人で居れば晴れだって思えるから
強がりや寂しさも忘れられるから
僕は君でなら僕で居られるから
だからいつもそばにいてよ「愛しい君へ」

明日、今日より笑顔になれる
君がいるだけでそう思えるから
何十年、何百年、何千年時を超えようとも「君を愛してる」

sigh

2010-02-05T01:11:00.002+09:00

I need to find a way to get rid of this indescribable extremely demotivated mind towards studies. It's probably because I just finished my mock exams and deep inside my mind I'm thinking that everything is done, where actually nothing is ever done yet. TOK essay, Musical Investigation, few Physics Lab reports, 2 Maths Portfolios, Japanese and English Orals, and finally, revisions for ALL subjects for the upcoming IB final exams on May. In addition, I have to send all my documents to the US universities, apply for the Canada universities and also visit the IDP to talk about universities in Australia. Actually there are more things which I haven't done yet than I have done so far. I thought I was almost done with my IB course works.

Moreover, there is a guy who is recently acting in such a way that ANNOYS me a LOT and a bit over the top.

PLEASE

If you want to talk, go ahead. But not to me, talk to yourself somewhere else where I can never see you even a little tiny bit of your shadow and where I can never hear your voice for even a single yocto bell or phone.

1000

2010-01-28T23:28:00.000+09:00

Yesterday was the 999th day

And therefore, obviously today is the 1000th day

I was happy when it begun on the 1st day

And I am happy on this 1000th day, too

I know I will feel the same or maybe even better

For another 1000s of days

It was a miracle on the 1st day

And I am grateful on this 1000th day

I will be really grateful if I can have another 1000s of days

All those days are part of the things that I cherish the most

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Because you're the one, with my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Because I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

999

2010-01-27T21:49:00.004+09:00

Here comes again

Since that day

Today is the 999th day

If we go back to that place again in the future

Will you remember about that day again?

Or

Will you try to avoid thinking about it?

I hope you are happy now

Because I am

And hopefully it will last as happy memories in the future too

999

Please...

2010-01-17T07:21:00.002+09:00

Please let me not think about it.....
Let me FORGET it....

Old

2010-01-16T12:07:00.003+09:00

turned 19
I dont know if its a good thing or a bad thing
becoming older and older
well, its still probably a good thing as long as i dont start to "age"
"age" as in some of my abilities start to degrade due to my age

I think I will just enjoy my life until the "age" begins :)
only then I will start to concern about that!

A Door to Tomorrow（明日への扉）

2009-12-19T21:11:00.004+09:00

Shining sweat, a t shirt, a love that I found
Watching you, more radiant than anyone
I found feelings that I never experienced before
A new voyage will begin

After the rain, fickle feelings, a blue wind, a strong sunshine
Someday, passing them all
The color of love that I'll start painting
I'll color the first page

A fortune telling magazine
On both of our stars
I put both of our futures together
Full of scabs, the heart that won't come off
All becomes closed up by your kindness

My heart that became empty after some time
Is gradually being filled again
One moment, a dry gesture
I want to keep gazing at you, smiling at you someday
Who talks of your dreams

When you protect something precious
If the first step you take is courage
I run away from getting hurt
All I get is the long way around

The habit of pretending to be strong
Has nowhere to go now
And is getting confused inside my heart
To my feelings for you which I felt for the first time
Rather than words, tears overflow

Let's walk, step by step
With feet that are a little different in size
The road we walk together
The road which is bumpy
A small decision marked
On a folded white map
I'll tell you, honestly, right now

The melody of the two of us that I hear in my ears
Holding back my flowing tears
I'll tell you a cliche
"We'll be still together from now on..."

These feelings that I couldn't hold back anymore
Came down as shining drops from the sky in the 25th hour
When I realized, a gentle breeze blew in my heart
And I slowly open the door to tomorrow

Words go over time, and burst past forever
Going past many seasons
And the place it settles, is the place for us
After the voyage that was too long
Let's raise the love we vowed

光る汗、Tシャツ、出会った恋　誰よりも輝く君を見て
初めての気持ちを見つけたよ　新たな旅が始まる

雨上がり、気まぐれ、蒼い風　強い日差し　いつか追い越して
これから描いて行く恋の色　始まりのページ彩るよ

占い雑誌　ふたつの星に　二人の未来を重ねてみるの
かさぶただらけ　とれない心　あなたの優しさでふさがる

いつの間にか　すきま空いた　心が満たされて行く
ふとした瞬間の　さり気ない仕草
いつの日にか　夢を語る　あなたの顔をずっと
見つめていたい　微笑んでいたい

大切な何かを守るとき　踏み出せる一歩が勇気なら
傷つくことから逃げ出して　いつもただ遠回りばかり

行き場なくした強がりのクセが　心の中で戸惑っているよ
初めて知ったあなたの想いに　言葉より涙あふれてくる

少し幅の違う足で　一歩ずつ歩こうね
二人で歩む道　でこぼこの道
二つ折りの白い地図に　記す小さな決意を
正直に今　伝えよう

耳元で聞こえる二人のメロディー　溢れ出す涙こらえて
ありきたりの言葉　あなたに言うよ　「これからもずっと一緒だよね…」

抑えきれない　この気持ちが　25時の空から
光る滴として　降り注いだ
気がついたら　心の中　やさしい風が吹いて
明日への扉　そっと開く

言葉が今　時を越えて　永遠を突き抜ける
幾つもの季節を通り過ぎて
たどり着いた　二人の場所　長すぎた旅のあと
誓った愛を育てよう

Useless

2009-11-15T14:48:00.003+09:00

I feel useless.

Can't even help to calm down.

Can't even help to release stress.

Can't even help to settle a problem.

Can't even help to have happiness.

Can't even help to see a smile.

What can I do?

I feel useless.

Lucky

2009-11-05T21:00:00.001+09:00

Do you hear me?
I'm talking to you
Across the water
Across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky
Oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets harder

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you, I promise you I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through the trees
Move so pretty, you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

More Than Words

2009-10-29T23:17:00.003+09:00

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's no that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
'Cause I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn into two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

Now that I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
'Cause I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn into two
More than words to show you fee
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

More then words

900

2009-10-21T00:20:00.005+09:00

Today(20/10/2009) is the 900th day.
Do you remember??
I will remember even when I'm 100 years old.

Universities

2009-10-19T14:25:00.002+09:00

Hmm, those are some Universities that can be my options....

-University of California, Barkley
-University of California, San Diego
-California State University, Northridge
-San Diego State University
-Georgia Institute of Technology
-Iowa State University
-Wichita State University
-Grand Valley State University
-Wayne State University
-Delta State University
-North Dakota State University
-The Ohio State University

Need to narrow down my choices from these....

Growth

2009-10-12T19:44:00.003+09:00

I was actually quite surprised when I wore my old school pants today for assembly, that it was tight. I grew since Year 11 I guess? I just told SOMEONE that I can never have a pants becoming tight for me because I've stopped growing long time ago. But that was probably because I usually buy a bigger sized pants.lol Well, HURRAY for myself that I grew!

Apparently I am a dog.lol That's what she said. A 小狗 (puppy in Mandarin)^^; It's probably because I use the term/name goshujinsama.

Had a good time today as well, despite the works left which I really have to finish asap. I really hope that this time will last forever (excluding the works of course). I know it is impossible, but as long as it can.

Hopefully the Project X will succeed.lol I just came up with this stupid name randomly. But yea, fail in the project is sort of a DEATH to me. I must find a way to do it well. Really.

The Real Face

2009-10-09T01:47:00.002+09:00

I don't know which is my real face.

Is it the face when I am:
-talking with my male friends
-talking with my female friends
-talking with who I like
-talking with my family
-talking with my teachers
-talking with strangers
-talking to myself

The word "face" means the actually "personality" deep inside my heart. Which one is my ORIGINAL personality. It is very easy to change my attitude and language depending on who I am talking to, but is that really me?
But it is still "me" who is talking to whoever it is, so all the faces should be considered as me.
If that is true, everyone will have lots of lots of faces, depending on who they are talking to. Sometimes people are fake. really.

Football

2009-10-06T22:26:00.002+09:00

GAAAAH
lost
lost
lost
lost
4-1
I played sooooo crappy.
And what's more surprising is that
I'm the captain for the Team B.
I SAID I HAVEN'T BEEN PLAYING FOOTBALL FOR THE PAST 3 YEARS!!
It was so embarrassing that I couldn't do anything as a captain today.
I was supposed to be talking to people during the game, coaching and advising but I'm not good in football!! I don't know the stuffs!
I think I should tell him?? To not make me be the captain? Because I think it is better to have someone who actually knows football. Captain doesn't mean "the oldest" person in the team.

Anyway, I need to improve my football. I need to join the Team A!!

GAH

2009-10-05T22:54:00.001+09:00

Uplands vs Dalat
Football match
It was the A teams' game
I was
Sitting at the side of the pitch
Shouting and cheering at the players
I did not join the team to do this
I will make it into the A team
Very soon

Purpose of Life

2009-10-04T22:37:00.002+09:00

Have you ever thought of your purpose of life?
Are we supposed to be having one? Or at least one?
I don't have one. Well, I don't have one YET I would rather say (hoping to have one... really).
Because if you think about it, we only last for approximately 80 to 90 years. But what are we supposed to be doing during that 80 ~ 90 years? If we just spend our whole life time for nothing, that's just wasted. I would rather not live than spending a meaningless life.

Would you die for something than living for nothing? And would you consider that as an acceptable, reasonable and meaningful death? You need a reason to die, don't you?

Success

2009-09-27T02:11:00.003+09:00

It always feels good when I make someone surprise. And today was one of the best surprise I made I think. A surprise birthday party.

Had a lot of fun, I really did. Met up with old friend who I haven't seen in a while, with his new girlfriend, too. We talked, played and laughed.
I am satisfied with myself too. But one thing that I would regret is that I wasn't that well organized. I was assuming too many things that people will understand me without me telling them. And I also relied too much. But anyway, the party went well without any problem so I shall think in a positive way.

Happy 18th Birthday, Wen Lu!!
I hope you like the party and the presents, and I hope that you will be happy all the time :)

TDL ~ Over the Hari Raya Holidays~

2009-09-19T01:30:00.003+09:00

-Extended Essay
-Japanese World Literature Essay
-Business Internal Assessment
-Musical Investigation
-Physics Write Up
-CAS Manager Reflections

TDL ASAP
-Search Universities
-Register and Study for SAT and TOEFL

Responsibility

2009-09-18T21:43:00.004+09:00

Why is everyone not being responsible to what they said?

People should really have a second taught before they say anything.

Especially when it involves other people.

You can't just escape by saying "I'm sorry" or "I can't help".

At least take some action to SHOW and PROVE that you're actually feeling sorry.

I hate this.

How much I spend a month

2009-09-06T17:04:00.003+09:00

I realize that I'm spending quite a lot in a month.

Allowance: RM200
Guitar lesson: RM140
Physics Tuition: RM350
Lunch Money: RM120
Petrol: RM200
Badminton: RM50

Total: RM1,060

Plus this month I've already spent:
New Guitar: RM3,500
Football Kit: RM100

Total: RM4,660

hmm.... I need to save...

Invasion

2009-08-30T20:26:00.001+09:00

HEYLOOOOO!! CAROL THE GREAT, AWESOME, WONDERFUL WAS HERE, AS WAS THE NOT SO GREAT AND AWESOME KYU SUN :)

We come in peace. All hail.

TDL

2009-08-29T20:52:00.002+09:00

-Music Investigation
-Extended Essay 2nd Draft
-Finish off Business IA
-Japanese World Literature Essay
-Japanese Oral
-Read Book for English B
-Maths Work Sheet

Year 13 began.
I knew it but still, my only comment is "too much works".
I have to do all of the above and our TOK essay is coming up soon. And by the time we are done with all the course works, we will have to start preparing for the mocks.
MOREOVER, I have to take my SAT and TOEFL as I am going to the States for university. And now I will also have to search for which university to go as well.

Busy busy busy.... I shouldn't be watching TV.lol

BAck

2009-07-31T14:45:00.003+09:00

Back from Japan. I feel more relaxed here in Penang. I think I'm becoming more and more Malaysian.lol Or maybe it's just that I don't have any friends in my hometown so I felt lonely.

It's been a while since I posted something on this blog (again). I'm getting more and more lazy as my summer holidays are passing, and I really do need to start doing my works!! Seriously, there are too much for me to do, (it's just that I've never done this much of works before in my life) and I'll be totally screwed if I don't.

Had dinner with papa last night, I think it was the first time to have a dinner with only two of us. It's funny how we started talking about what's going to happen in the future, like what will he and mum do after both my sister and I left home for work, what will I be doing after my schooling, he has to work hard for another 10 more years(that's when my sister graduates University) and so on. I felt kind of corny though, I feel uneasy(shy?lol) to talk about those serious topics with my dad>< Haha, maybe I'm just not used to it yet. Haven't had such a conversation with papa before, think he's been too busy especially nowadays because of the economic downturn. Haven't had time to talk like that.
Need to think of what I'm going to do in the future.... And for that, I first need to search for universities....

And today's someone's special day~, happy birthday Cheryl!

QU~~

2009-06-20T21:41:00.000+09:00

I'm going to Kuching tomorrow. Bye~

幸せな時

2009-06-08T01:37:00.002+09:00

「光陰矢の如し」
時とは、光の速さの様に過ぎて行く。

それでも

悲しいと思う時が有れば、
嬉しいと思う時も有る。

怒っている時が有れば、
喜んでいる時も有る。

不幸な時が有れば、
幸せな時も有る。

嫌なことは速く過ぎるけど、
良いことも速く過ぎてしまう。

「時」とは

残酷であり、
慈愛である。

裏切であり、
希望である。

複雑であり、
単純である。

残された「時」を如何に効率良く使うか。
人生の良し悪しはそれに左右される。

huh....

2009-05-29T23:25:00.000+09:00

im

tired

to

live

Satisfaction

2009-05-19T21:12:00.002+09:00

I'm satisfied nowadays.

I'm happy in another word.

I just am. Don't ask why.lol

Everything in my life is going well, despite the crazy amounts of school works that I have to do. The IBO should really concern more about the students and give less works. Like CAS is taking away lots of our free times and they still expect us to do self-studies and course works at home. I need to start studying.....:(

~To Do List~(TDL from now onwards)
-Business course work
-Radio advertisement for Business
-Musical Investigation
-Extended Essay
-Maths revision
-Physics revision
-Prepare for End of Year Exams
-Japanese A1 world literature comparison essay(look for topic)
-Search for University/College

argh

2009-05-13T22:24:00.002+09:00

pain pain pain pain

my body aches like hell

plus im extremely disappointed about my body, how unfit i am

i didnt expect myself to be THAT tired after my 200m sprint. i almost puked.

need to traaaaaaiiinnnnnn

MUST!!!!! HAH!!!!

What?

2009-05-09T12:11:00.000+09:00

You? Failure of Maths?

Then what am I?

Failur-er.

Sigh

Anniversary

2009-05-05T23:06:00.003+09:00

2007 May 5th.

Everything started on this day. And today is the 2nd anniversary. Well, I am still not very sure whether I should call it an "anniversary" though. But anyway, today is the 2nd year.
Still remember everything that happened on that day. Everything's still fresh in my mind. I was pretty brave that day^^; haha.
As I think back, there were many many things since that day. Like REALLY lot. Those are all parts of my memories, it doesn't matter whether they are good or bad. They were all important to me, and I learned many things from those things. I cherish all those memories.

Wish that nothing will go wrong from now onwards, and hopefully I can finish my IB course without any problems.

My Spirit Will Go On

2009-05-04T01:33:00.000+09:00

Life is a misery, don't know how it's come to be
Death, the epitome of all of our days
In the past we had no choice to hear or to be the voice
Close your eyes and visualize the demon to arise

You know that sanity is not as it was meant to be
And now that misery has taken a new stand
In the land of a thousand souls we will carry on through the rain
In the sun we will move along with the memories of the slain
When I see this humanity and the evil that they have come to be
We've come to the point of no return and you beg for just...

One more time to escape from all this madness
One more time to be set free from all this sadness
And one last time to be the one who understands
My soul and my spirit will go on, for all of eternity

Foreign the currency, your payment in blood to be
Death is the destiny for all of our ways
In the dark you hide away for who or what you can't say
When I see the power of the demon come alive

You know that sanity is not as it was meant to be
And now that misery has taken a new stand
On the wings of eagles flying staring on to the sun
Reaching for the gold horizon when the war shall be won
Can you see the debauchery and the blade of death that has come for thee
In winds of torment forever more you will cry for just...

One more time to escape from all this madness
One more time to be set free from all this sadness
And one last time to be the one who understands
My soul and my spirit will go on, for all of eternity

In the land of a thousand souls we will carry on through the rain
In the sun we will move along with the memories of the slain
When I see this humanity and the evil that they have come to be
We've come to the point of no return and you beg for just...

One more time to escape from all this madness
One more time to be set free from all this sadness
And one last time to be the one who understands
My soul and my spirit will go on, my soul and spirit will go on, for all of eternity

To Do List

2009-05-03T00:35:00.003+09:00

Major things:
-Extended Essay
-Business Coursework
-Music Coursework (Music Investigation)
-Group 4 Project
-Japanese A1 World Literature Comparison Essay's Topic

The not very major things:
-English assignment
-Maths revision on differentiation and integration
-Japanese A1 homework (forgot what exactly it is.lol)
-CAS manager

Plenty of works to do..

DAN DAN 心魅かれてく

2009-04-29T22:22:00.001+09:00

DAN DAN 心魅かれてく
その眩しい笑顔に
果てない暗闇(やみ)から飛び出そう Hold my hand

君と出会ったとき
子どものころ大切に想ってた景色(ばしょ)を思い出したんだ
僕と踊ってくれないか
光と影の Winding Road
今でもあいつに夢中なの？
少しだけ振り向きたくなるような時もあるけど
愛と勇気と誇りを持って闘うよ

DAN DAN 心魅かれてく
この宇宙(ほし)の希望のかけら
きっと誰もが永遠を手に入れたい
ZEN ZEN 気にしないフリしても
ほら君に恋してる
果てない暗闇(やみ)から飛び出そう Hold your hand

怒った顔も疲れてる君も好きだけど
あんなに飛ばして生きて大丈夫かなと思う
僕は・・・何気ない(なにげない)行動(しぐさ)に振り回されてる sea side blue
それでもあいつに夢中なの？
もっと聞きたいことがあったのに
二人の会話が車の音にはばまれて通りに舞うよ

DAN DAN 心魅かれてく
自分でも不思議なんだけど
何かあると一番(すぐ)に君に電話したくなる
ZEN ZEN 気のないフリしても
結局君のことだけ見ていた
海の彼方へ飛び出そうよ Hold my hand

hmmmm

2009-04-27T19:52:00.000+09:00

i need a place to study....

Oh My God

2009-04-26T02:06:00.001+09:00

I had a terrible nightmare tonight. Seriously.... It was TERRIBLE.

I will never ever want to have that to happen again.

Time

2009-04-20T18:14:00.004+09:00

It's end of April....

Time passes by as fast as the speed of light.

We are now on our 3rd term of year 12 in IB, which means we only have another year left in Uplands.

When I first came to Uplands, I really hated this school. I really wanted to leave as soon as soon as possible but now, I don't want to leave away from my friends...

Time changes everything and as well as destroy. It passes so fast and changes many things around me and ruins even more things.

What I want to say here is, that

"THE TIME PASSED TOO FAST AND TODAY IS THE END OF OUR EASTER HOLIDAYS. AND I HAVEN'T EVEN STARTED DOING ANY OF THE HOMEWORK YET!!"

Stupid time.... You better slow down or else you will make me be in a serious trouble.

YOU RUINED MY HOLIDAY

Singapore

2009-04-15T23:28:00.001+09:00

ahahahahahaha

just came back from singapore

dragonforce was aaawwwssssoooomeeeeeee!!:D:D

singapore

was

so complicated

but then

the public services and stuffs were really uhhhh.... how to say.... advanced??(it amazed me)

well, overall, it was a good trip :)

bahahaha

2009-04-10T01:51:00.002+09:00

GOING
TO
SINGAPORE
ON
SATURDAY
TO
WATCH
DRAGONFORCE!!!!!!:D:D:D

finally. there were many problems about the stupid visa things and stuffs and its finally confirmed that i can go!! well, A and his brother are not following but still, im sooooooo excited!! W is coming with me, and my friend in singapore, K is coming too! and might meet C there and hang out:)
hope there wont be any troubles during the trip.....

~To Do List~
-Extended Essay's topic and mentor
-Maths revision
-Physics revision
-CAS manager
-Business course work planning
-Music Investigation
-Practice piano
-Practice guitar
-Read book for Japanese A1
-Reading journal for Japanese A1

Start doing them after coming back from Singapore!!

gaahh

2009-04-05T00:58:00.000+09:00

I'm sick....:( i hate being sick.
my body aches, runny nose, cough, sore throat and so on. stuuuuupid.
someone help me:(

700

2009-04-04T01:47:00.001+09:00

Today is the 700th day. (3/4/09)

GCSE Music Re-union Dinner

2009-04-01T20:07:00.003+09:00

Oh oh, I almost forgot about it.
We had a dinner at my dad's restaurant gathering the 2006-08 GCSE Music students.(not all, but the ones who are still in Penang and able to come)
Well, it was..... FUN:) Really. I think it was one of the most fun dinner I've recently had. And nowadays we've been having lots of lots of works and couldn't really relax so I think it was also a good opportunity to rest ourselves down(up?) to heaven.lol (It's a new phrase that I just made up:P)
I wish we can have that kind of gathering more often, not only dinner but maybe some other things that we can do together. It was really nice and relaxing. Or maybe we shall do this every time when CT comes back:P
The funny thing was, that it was a dinner for the Music students but none of us, like NONE, actually talked about music^^; We were basically just GOSSIPING.lol Well, it's a good way of relieving stress and tension.... lol

Anyway,

THANKS FOR COMING EVERYONE,
AND LET'S DO IT AGAIN!!:D

April Fool

2009-04-01T19:49:00.002+09:00

Today is 1st of April. Yes, it is the day that you can LEGALLY LIE to everyone. Isn't that stupid? People LIE anyway. Whats the point having a legally lying day??

April Fools' Day or All Fools' Day, although not a holiday in its own right, is a notable day celebrated in many countries on April 1. The day is marked by the commission of hoaxes and other practical jokes of varying sophistication on friends, family members, enemies, and neighbours, or sending them on fool's errand, the aim of which is to embarrass the gullible. Traditionally, in some countries, the jokes only last until noon: like UK, Australia, New Zealand, Canada and South Africa, someone who plays a trick after noon is called an "April Fool". Elsewhere, such as in Ireland, France, and the USA, the jokes last all day.

The origin of April Fools' Day is obscure. One likely theory is that the modern holiday was first celebrated soon after the adoption of the Gregorian Calendar; the term referred to someone still adhering to the Julian Calendar, which it replaced. In many pre-Christian cultures May Day (May 1) was celebrated as the first day of summer, and signalled the start of the spring planting season. An April Fool was someone who did this prematurely. Another origin is that April 1 was counted the first day of the year in France. When King Charles IX changed that to January 1, some people stayed with April 1. Those who did were called "April Fools" and were taunted by their neighbors. In the eighteenth century the festival was often posited as going back to the times of Noah. An English newspaper article published on April 13th, 1789 said that the day had its origins when he sent the raven off too early, before the waters had receded. He did this on the first day of the Hebrew month that corresponds with April. A possible reference to April Fools' Day can be seen in the Canterbury Tales (ca 1400) in the Nun's Priest's tale, a tale of two fools: Chanticleer and the fox, which took place on March 32nd.

Stupid-___-; We don't even know the origin of the April fool. Well, I don't really mind because it's actually quite fun to play a prank on someone, especially C, WL, A and R. Because of their reactions and the way they fall on the prank:P

Anyhow, 2 more days of school ( last day isn't really a school day though) and then Easter Holidays!! Nothing changes in Malaysia, but still it's Easter. Looking forward for an Easter egg chocolate?? Yes, I am!!:D But unfortunately for the IB students, we get TONS OF WORKS instead of Easter eggs......:(

GG

2009-03-28T13:09:00.002+09:00

One more week to the Easters! I can't wait for it.
Oh, we had a training match for basketball against Dalat on Thursday, obviously we got trashed. I really hope that Uplands will take sports, especially basketball seriously. We need to practice more. Since we moved to our new campus, the opportunity for us to play basketball is allmost ZERO apart from our weekly training, which is only an hour per week. Who can improve by such a short time?? At the old campus, at least we could use the court all the time during break, lunch, after school, even BEFORE school in the morning. I remember seeing the IB student playing basketball during their free period. And now, we are not allowed to use the court AT ALL just because it is now an indoor gymnasium and they said that we must have at least one teacher to supervise us while playing. But the teachers are lazy enough not to care about us, they just say either "I'm busy" or "I have to go home". Maybe I should go and ask for a permission to use the gym during break and lunch. So at least there will be some people playing basketball more than once a week, hopefully everyday and the basketball standard of Uplands will go up.

~To Do List~
-English essays:
1. Film critique
2. Essay on Paper 2
-Physics revision
-Finish studying Calculus on Maths
-Finish Case Study for Business
-Music Investigation
-Reading Journal for Japanese A1
-Refletion on CAS manager

To Do List

2009-03-23T01:59:00.002+09:00

-Perform in assembly tomorrow
-Music investigation (draft)
-English oral presentation
-Physics write ups
-Physics report
-Japanese notes
-Japanese homeworks(including reading)
-Business articles
-EE topic
-Reflect for Relay for Life in CAS manager
-Search for acoustic pieces for the IB Art Exhibition
-Confirm about Singapore trip

CT is back!!=D but feel sorry for him that we are still in school, so he has to wait for another 2 more weeks to hang out with us=( and before the term ends, ill have to manage all the things on the list to be done.

Growing process

2009-03-17T02:41:00.003+09:00

I am in a process of becoming a better man.

I will grow through pains and mistakes.

I am now doing all I can do, and will carry on doing them.

Every single step I take, has a meaning to it.

Reflect and study what I've done in each step,

And learn the mistake that I have made.

This might take a while, but

I will train myself and will soon become a better man.

sigh

2009-03-15T18:13:00.000+09:00

i dont know what to do with it

To Do List

2009-03-08T19:39:00.002+09:00

-Preparation for TOK presentation
-Practice guitar for senior recital
-Practice guitar for assembly
-Practice guitar for the performance in Relay for Life
-Maths portfolio
-Start reflecting CAS activities
-Update CAS manager
-Tidy up the notes for Japanese A1
-Study for Music end of term exam
-IB Group 4 Project (I have no idea what I'm doing and who I'm doing with)

Pretty much to do.

Warmness on the Soul

2009-02-27T23:06:00.001+09:00

Your hazel green tint eyes watching every move I make.
And that feeling of doubt, it's erased.
I'll never feel alone again with you by my side.
You're the one, and in you I confide.

And we have gone through good and bad times.
But your unconditional love was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me.
And your loves always been true as can be.
I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.

And we have gone through good and bad times.
But your unconditional love was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me.
And your loves always been true as can be.
I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.

I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.

WHY SINGAPORE!?

2009-02-26T22:00:00.002+09:00

Event:
DRAGONFORCE ULTRA BEATDOWN WORLD TOUR FAR EAST 2009 - LIVE IN SINGAPORE

Date/Time:
11 April 2009 (8.00pm)

Event Type:
Concert

Duration:
Estimated 3 hrs.

Interval:
N.A.

Promoter:
Quebec Leisure International Pte Ltd / Loud Entertainments

Venue:
D’marquee, DowntownEast

Ticket Price:
Full Price: $70.00
(Group Purchase 10 tickets Get 1 ticket FREE)
VIP Tickets (Meet & Greet DragonForce Members, Limited Passes Available): $120.00
Onsite Tickets: $80.00
[*All prices exclude booking fee]

HOOORAAAAAYYY!!!! =D =D DRAGONFORCE LIVE CONCERT!!
but WHY?? WHY IN SINGAPORE!?? so expensive....T^T accommodation is expensive, transportation is expensive, shopping is expensive and CURRENCY IS EXPENSIVE. EVERYTHING. GAH.

anyway, hope that i can go and watch them playing live... this will be my first ever live concert in my whole life and they are one of my favorite bands!=D

so what i REALLY hope now is:
ECONOMIC DOWNTURN IN SINGAPORE!!! so that the sing dollars will be cheaper and i wont have to spend a lot for the concert.=)

Job's done!=)

2009-02-18T12:22:00.002+09:00

It's been a loooong time. Six hundred and fifty six days. Almost two years.
I've been trying hard but then I think this time was the only success. I mean, it was the best. Now, I am no longer facing any problems and hence I am quite happy now=D (despite the crazy amounts of school works and guitar practice that I have to do)

Oh, by the way, I just found out that there are so many Happy Birthdays this month. (according to my facebook.lol) List out:

-Hentai
-Haruki
-Bec
-Lidia
-Great Basketballer
-Poker No.1
-Mr. Weed
-American Japanese rapper
-ONG
-JeeMin
-Kai-kun

Yea, that's pretty much all of them?lol Well, I'm sure there are more (in fact I didn't write down some) but those are the ones that I would actually care and celebrate.=P Sorry if I miss out some that I would actually care, go and check your facebook and submit your birthday in your calender.=)

Anyway,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ALL!!!=D

raaawwwr

2009-02-03T18:23:00.002+09:00

WEIRD

so weird. whats going on??? did i do anything? i dreamed about this thing last night and it actually happened today.(im not gonna say what "this thing" is) but its just so weird.....

I Can Wait Forever

2009-01-31T14:03:00.002+09:00

You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So I try to find the words that I could say
I know distance doesn't matter, but you feel so far away

And I can't lie but every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I, wanna come back home to see your face tonight
Cause I just can't take it

Another day without you with me
It's like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait, I can wait forever
When you call, my heart stops beating
When you're gone, it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait, I can wait forever

You look so beautiful today
It's like every time I turn around, I see your face
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, I wish that I could stay

And I can't lie but every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I wanna come back home to see your face tonight
Cause I just can't take it

Another day without you with me
It's like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait, I can wait forever
When you call, my heart stops beating
When you're gone, it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait, I can wait, I can wait forever

I know it feels like forever
I guess that just the price I've gotta pay
But when you come back home to feel your touch makes it better
Until that day there's nothing else that I can do
And I just can't take it

Another day without you with me
It's like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait, I can wait forever
When you call, my heart stops beating
When you're gone, it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait, I can wait, I can wait forever.....

いうぅｔｈｔが

2009-01-26T11:24:00.002+09:00

happy chinese new year~~. well actually there are nothing much to do for me cuz im japanese and we celebrate new years on the 1st january. aaan, i havent gotten my angpau yet. I NEED MONOEY.
oh, i might get a new hand phone!=) cuz the one im using now sucks. really sucks. so yea.
bye bye.lol